20 Things I’ve Learned in 20 Years

I turned 20 yesterday, and while I can’t go out partying to celebrate (damn you diet!) I’ve had some time to think…I’ve been on this planet for some time now. So I thought I would conjure up a list of 20 wise and wonderful things I have learned over the last 20 years.

1. If you want something, you’ve gotta work for it.

It’s as simple as that. If you want to be a writer, you have to write until your fingers hurt. If you want to sing, you need to do it loud enough for everyone to hear how good you are. Don’t rely on anyone else to give you what you want.

2. Don’t listen to that dick who told you it’s kinda off-putting that you can drink pitchers all night like a champ.

People like that aren’t worth your time. Don’t let people judge you for having fun, so drink up honey and smile until your cheeks ache!

3. It’s pronounced DUCT tape, not duck tape.

Don’t even laugh at me…you all thought it too.

4. Friendships don’t always last.

I learned this the hard way. You may find that as you start to find your place in the world, the people who you hung out with may start to drift. It’s okay though, no hard feelings.

5. Neither do romances.

Relationships can end for all kinds of reasons, in my experience it’s never been for a good reason (until months later when I realise they were an ass). Although it can feel like it’s the end of the world when a relationship ends, it’s not. It gets better and you forget about them.

6. Creativity is important, express yourself whichever way comes natural to you.

Whether it be writing, drawing, singing, even making jewellery, being creative is good for the mind and soul. Find your niche and roll with it. You never know what will come out of it.

7. Jamie Oliver ruined my school lunches – R.I.P. Turkey Twizzlers.

I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed.

8. Vodka is not your friend, okay?

Vodka is like that one friend you have who starts off as a blast in a glass but then slowly turns into a little bitch who you end up fighting with by the end of the night. Vodka knows how to break out your ridiculous booty-shaking dance moves one minute and then it’s punching you the next while you’re puking your guts up. Vodka sticks around the next day, it sits and slaps you in the face all day long. You want a bacon sandwich? No, be violently sick little girl!

9. Dogs are special little creatures.

I’ve always been a dog person, I’ve grown up around them. No matter how small or how big they are, I just love them all! I honestly believe that having a special bond with a dog is very important for everybody, they’re just little angels.

10. Taking care of yourself is important.

I’m talking to you ladies, make time to pamper yourself. Keep your hair in good condition by visiting the salon regularly, go get your nails done. Why not buy yourself high quality make up and skin care products? You deserve to look awesome!

11. You can meet some interesting people if you have an open mind.

Judging people from the get go can come back and bite you on the ass. Just because a person is a little bit different from what you’re used to, or comfortable with doesn’t make them a bad person. 9 times out of 10, eventually you will realise they’re actually great.

12. Doing things that people hate doesn’t make you uncool.

Example: I loved Nicki Minaj back in 2010 when everyone thought she sucked. Did that stop me from learning all the lyrics to her songs? No. It doesn’t matter if you’re doing something different to everyone else, enjoy the things you like.

13. Reading is a good way to relax.

I carry my Kindle everywhere with me, there’s nothing better than curling up in your ketchup stained sweats and reading a good book you bought for 99p on Amazon.

14. Whitney Houston’s voice was sent from heaven.

She was a legend and my go-to karaoke diva. R.I.P. Angel.

15. Your eyelashes can sense your fear.

There’s nothing I love more than wearing mascara on a good day, on a bad day? Not so much. I find that if you go in all calm and collected you’ll get that perfect fan of lashes instead of clumpy spider legs mixed with tears.

16. Take your vitamins and eat your vegetables.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is…be healthy.

17. Music is good for the soul.

You know it.

18. Keep your family close to your heart.

Family is the most important thing, don’t take them for granted. They will stick up for you when no one else will, they will love you no matter what and they aren’t afraid to knock you down a notch or two when you’re getting too big for your boots.

19. You can never have too many bags.

Whether it’s designer, from a charity shop or I found it in the sale bin at my favourite store, I can’t get enough of bags. Don’t ignore that little voice in your head telling you that you deserve to treat yourself!

20. Sometimes you win, sometimes you learn.

An important life lesson my dad taught me when I was 15. Don’t give up if you fail.

Beth x

A Healthy New Start!

Oh how I wish I was still that 16-year-old student who could eat a bag of Skittles and it wouldn’t even matter because I power walked from the bus station every morning and jogged up 4 flights of stairs almost every day. Now? Now, it’s 4 years on and that little bit of fitness that I had is gone and my body it’s, well for lack of a better word…lumpy.

Damn you office job.

My family has recently decided that we will be going to Florida next summer for our vacation (DISNEY!) and it’s time that I put down the cheeseburger and get healthy. Which is why I have signed up for a 12 week program where with any luck I should lose up to 2 stone in weight if I do the right amount of exercise with it.

I’m going to keep record of what food I order, loved or hated, and how much improvement has been made. I just need to stay away from the confectionary aisle at the store! Wish me luck, people. :)

Beth x

If You’re Out There

Dear you,

It’s been months since you made her your girlfriend, and it’s safe to say that what I thought was my heart breaking was actually just a bruised ego.

I try not to think of us as a bad thing, it wasn’t always bad…most of the time it was great and I can look back at that and smile. I do still miss you sometimes. I still remember the times you would send me cutesy texts to make me smile and when you would pull me in closer if I was too far away. I loved that I always got butterflies whenever I saw you.

For all you did those nice things, I didn’t like the person I was turning into when you weren’t so nice. I became needy, self-conscious, paranoid. I was becoming the girl I’ve always rolled my eyes at in annoyance. You turned into the type of man my mother warned me about.

Then you changed. You ignored me, my texts, my whole existence…for her. Even though I miss your kisses and your little ways, I hope damn sure that your new pretty little thing can put up with your mood swings for as long as I did. In fact no, I hope that you don’t make her feel as small as you made me. I hope she brings out the best in you.

If you’re out there, I just want you to know that I’m in a good place. I’m stronger. I’m happier. I hope you are too.

Beth x

Book Review: ‘ShutterGirl’ by CD Reiss

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Finally! A heroine that doesn’t make me want to throw up! ‘ShutterGirl’ is a bittersweet, second chance at love story that is sweet, wretched and gritty all at once. Set in Los Angeles we have the two very different sides to Hollywood.

Michael Greydon, born into Hollywood royalty, gifted movie star, incredibly attractive and all around good guy. Laine Cartwright, however, didn’t quite have the upbringing that Mr Greydon had. Having grown up in the darker part of the foster care system, she raised herself in her city of Los Angeles and found her calling (not an easy ride, I should add) as the best paparazza in Hollywood…as ShutterGirl.

I loved these main characters, I feel like Reiss developed them really well. Although Michael was the love interest of our heroine, he wasn’t the mysterious, broody and alpha-male that most authors create nowadays. Laine was fierce and independent which is so refreshing I could just hug the author for it. While I loved the main characters, in some parts of the story I didn’t believe that they were really into each other – the connection wasn’t always there and it let the story down. I think there was opportunity for a plot twist that would really strength the two characters as a couple.

‘ShutterGirl’ is overloading with potential drama and plot twists, but I do like that Reiss kept it to a minimum and cleverly picked what would make the story interesting. It’s a seriously sweet story with just the right amount of darkness.

I really liked the storyline and the way that Christine writes Los Angeles like it is it’s own character. I wouldn’t change much about the story but if I had to choose one thing I would have included more flashbacks or a little more back story from when they met in their past – I think this would have added a little more edge to it.

Overall, I would read this book again and recommend it to anyone who loves second-chance love stories. A huge well done to Christine on ‘ShutterGirl’ and I can’t wait to see what she creates next!

You can find Christine on Twitter here!

Beth x

picture – Google, I do not own the cover.

Book Review: ‘Just Say When’ by Kaylee Ryan

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‘Just Say When’ is a story of two people who are completely infatuated with each other only they try to hide their feelings due to one mutual problem. Ava’s big brother is Nate’s best friend.

This story gave me mixed feelings towards it, while it was an utterly cheesy, sweet and light read, it was a little too sweet. I almost had toothache. There was seriously no drama in this story, and while no drama in a relationship is a good thing I find that in a fictional story it’s a must to keep the story alive and entertaining. ‘Just Say When’ didn’t have this, or when something “happened” it was very mild.

I did however really like the two main characters and the group of friends, they were all funny/interesting. I really like that the group all became friends and bonded over the ‘Color Run’, I was glad that they were involved in the story and it wasn’t purely about Ava and Nate.

While I did like Ava and Nate’s relationship and the fact that their relationship wasn’t rushed nor was the physical side of it, I didn’t like the characters they were when they were together. Nate turned into your typical way too intense caveman who boiled over with rage if a guy even blinked in Ava’s direction, seriously annoying. I didn’t like that he smothered her and treated her like a baby, she’s was a grown ass woman. Though some of the time, Ava didn’t act like a grown ass woman. She came across as kind of immature and was incapable of doing anything for herself around Nate.

Brody, Ava’s over-protective Marine big brother, was a complete and utter asshole. Seriously, he was only around for a few chapters but I wanted to punch him every time he entered a scene. He completely over-reacted about the relationship and it just made him look like a hypocrite as his own secret comes into the picture. Ava and Nate fought their feelings and resisted each other so that they didn’t hurt Brody’s feelings, which I kind of found ridiculous as they were both adults and Nate was his best friend…who else would be better for your baby sister than the one guy you would take a bullet for? But I guess it was sweet that they resisted out of respect for him.

Overall, I did enjoy the light read, it only took me a day to read it. It was a sweet romance and I really enjoyed the fighting aspect around the story. I would recommend this book to anyone who enjoys angst-free stories, and don’t mind over-protective big brothers. I’d say well done to Kaylee Ryan, it was a cute story I just would have liked more drama!

What is your favourite kind of romance? Angst/Forbidden/Lovey-Dovey? Let me know in the comments below! :)

Beth x

picture: Google – I do not own the cover

Book Review: ‘Down The Rabbit Hole’ by Holly Madison


Don’t judge me.

I read this book for the simple reason that I’m incredibly nosey. I was never one of those girls growing up that was interested in that little bunny head or the Playboy franchise, nor did I watch the Girls Next Door reality TV series, but I have always wondered why on earth these girls would want to be in a relationship with a dude old enough to be their grandfather?

The book was juicy as hell, and gave a lot of insight to what life was like past the mansion gates. While I can believe everything that Holly wrote about Hugh Hefner and his manipulative ways that drove her to have little to no self-confidence and major insecurity issues, I found that what she revealed about the other girlfriends to be a little…fabricated. I don’t know whether it was because at the time she was rather paranoid and insecure in herself that she thought they were all ganging up on her, it does come across as if she was playing to victim sometimes, surely it couldn’t have been that catty. To me, it was a lot of petty he said-she said.

While I didn’t really care for all the cattiness and shit talking about the other girlfriends and Hef, it was nice to see Holly truly find herself after she got out of that mansion and the poisonous relationship that came with it. Everyone, no matter what mistakes they made or how they started out their life, deserves to be happy and comfortable with themselves.

I would recommend this book to anyone who watched the show or followed what happened in the Playboy mansion, it is probably more suited to fans than it is anyone else. But other than that, it was a good book and an easy read.

Whose autobiography would you like to read? Let me know in the comments below!

Beth x

picture: Google – I do not own the cover.

Update: Character Writing, Hectic Work Schedule and My Tonsillectomy

…Is this thing on?

I’m sorry! I know it’s been a while since I have written any book reviews but my life has been super busy (sometimes not by choice) lately and I haven’t really had much time to read any books, never mind write about them.

Not that I’m making up excuses, but we’ve had a few problems with some employees at our family business and so I’m pretty much doing everybody’s job until we get someone new to help out. So my work schedule is out of control and by the time I get home, I’m ready to go to sleep and never wake up again. Thankfully, we hired a new girl to help me out so all that stress has been lifted off my shoulders (my chiropractor is very pleased hear this, haha!)

On top of that, two weeks ago I underwent surgery to remove my golf ball sized tonsils and I don’t care what anyone says, it was the worst week of my life. I’ve had tonsillitis on and off every 5 weeks for the last 10 years and never have I ever felt pain like it, but on the plus side I lost around 10lbs on my ice pop and toddler pasta diet so I guess that makes it a little better. Even though I still can barely eat and I have terrible earache, I’m so glad that I’m finally starting to feel better, that sucked dude.

Last but certainly not least, I’m writing my own story! After weeks of researching and taking notes on how to improve my writing, I’m finally put it to some good use and I have started creating my characters for my story Grace. I’m going to post a summary to the story in a few weeks time and I may post character profiles also.

So stick around people, I have so much to show you :)

Beth x